Friday, February 02, 2007
Empty spaces fill me up with holes
distant faces with no place left to go
without you within me Ican't find no rest
where I'm going is anybody's guess
I've tried to go on like I never knew you
I'm awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
but without you all I'm going to be is incomplete
voices tell me I should carry on
but I am swimming in an ocean all alone
baby, my baby
It's written on your face
you still wonder if we made a big mistake
I've tried to go on like I never knew you
I'm awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
but without you all I'm going to be is incomplete
I don't mean to drag it on, but I can't seem to let you go
I don't wanna make you face this world alone
I wanna let you go (alone)
I've tried to go on like I never knew you
I'm awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
but without you all I'm going to be is incomplete
incomplete
This feeling Hurts terribly, indeed a v tough road ahead...
~*& there she goes,walking thru e next season
chasing her dreams~*~;
12:15 AM
Friday, July 21, 2006
Chan Brothers Travel
It's been abt a week since i started work @ Chan Brothers Travel. Initially, i was offered a job at tour counters, perhaps a tour consultant i guess.. However, they called up again & asked me if i'm interested to join their Marcomm depart for a while since the NATAs Fair is coming too. Hence, i thought this could be interesting & an useful experience for me. Anyway, it will be a temp job till end of next mth n i'll decide to renew/extend from then. I took up the job and started work on Tue (18th June).
Haiz...now i feel like sobing..I miss BOSCH terribly. Bosch working environment, the culture & the PEOPLE espec., my loveable collegueues i meant...is what i'm truly missing now. It's totally a different working environment over here.. I'm not used to it...
The impression they gave me till now is they're so unfriendly, nasty! =( espec. the assistant manager and manager of the depart. Sianz........They seem to be spying secretly on u at all times nv regard u as a new staff or communicate much everyday. perhaps now i noe y the rest of them aren't toking much too. they go lunch time v late at 2 or 3pm themselves. The departm is small & quiet...no privacy too. I believe there's lots of conflicts btw them...Have kinda politics in this departm. but guess there's even more politics at the HR side too. That's wat i noe of. Anyway, every co. have their own politics..Hmm, this workplace is not new....quite an old building. I was so shocked on the first day tt we've to use our own toilet roll from the office to go to the toilet...haha! and sianz i've to reach office at 9am in the morning but i can't get into the office depart. becos they won come till 9.30pm. The door is locked! Moreoever, i can't afford to come late becos of the clock in time. so i have to wait wait wait wait. Lunch time i rather have Alone than facing those unfriendly pple!! just find it so uncomfortable to get along with them.
Working here just a few days already making me feel so lonely, bored, tired. everyday end work, will reach home abt 7.30 plus. made me so shagged.. Sat still have to work half day...goodness me..
I really miss my bosch collegueues & the environment tt i'm used working in. As for the work they gave me so far, is just basic admin work to clear. Nothing tt I'm learning now at the moment. How i wish time could pass faster over here. Oh well, if this kinda of situation continues, i shall just work for a mth onli w/o extension. I miss sch....guess it's time to get back to my books and find a SCH!!!!!!!! haiz....toking abt sch, there goes another headache.................
~*& there she goes,walking thru e next season
chasing her dreams~*~;
5:46 PM
Wednesday, July 19, 2006
At the Crossroads in my life...
I realised time is really passing v fast each day. It's already mid of July since i graduated & stopped working @Bosch in May. I've been slacking aimlessly, wasting my time away, without any sense of direction now. Apparrently, I've been feeling moody v often lately.. Why?? because i'm now at the crossroads in my life. My gosh, this feeling is bad...i dislike it so much. It didn't made me feel good. each morning i wake up, i don't feel happy & had nth to look forward to, such as what am i doing now for...??? to acheive wat? Ans: Nothing!?! Where are my goals?? I wish god can guide me which is the best path and direction to take. I wanna study................I wanna get my degree once and for all before i step into the working society....
There're too many factors to consider abt... such as sch reputation, the duration of study, local/overseas, the COST of my tuition fees espec!! pros and cons for each choice la..Which made me feel so lost, no idea what's the best & wisest choice to take. Apparrently, I've been thinking hard, reasearching high and low for every possible & worth course to study.
I tried my v best striving hard to acheive gd results in poly so that i wouldn't have much prob. getting to uni. Indeed i made it, scoring a result that i'm satisfied w. However, local unis like NTU, NUS and SMU went out of my choice. got rejected "unluckily" & they dun have courses tt i seem confident to go for. This made me left with choices of sch like SIM, UNLV, overseas uni or private institutions...*haiz*
I just received the letter of offer from UNLV this morning...Uh Oh......Now shld i go for it?? this uni is not v well-heard of locally yet, cos it just started.....=/
The tuition fee cost a BIG SUMS$$!! & the duration couldn't be shorten regardless of my exemptions. haiz.Though i'll be studying Hospitality...still not a combination with tourism. The onli best adv i can see now is.....I found a uni to study LOCALLY ... and is 1/2 relevant to what i'm interested in. If i choose to go overseas, tuition fees will definitely be lesser and it's faster for me to get a degree too! but.....adding up accomodation and living expenses, i've no idea how ex it will cost up by then....nonetheless, i will miss all my dear ones here..going there alone doesn't sound nice...Haiz...see..tt's my terrible dilemna situation now...
Haven discuss with parents at all yet. they only seem interested to know how much the course is than any other import factors. They even thought i'm not interested in studying anymore and they seem to be discouraging me to go uni now..so sad...NO, of cos not. I wanna study....Wish there's someone to give me some enlightment & encouragement...
~*& there she goes,walking thru e next season
chasing her dreams~*~;
10:31 PM
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
Thursday, 22 June 2006
I remembered I had quite a good day last thursday. It was still a fine day to let me smile for the day though i didn't manage to turn up for an interview. Felt kinda wasted! =( Oh well, I was supposed to go for a SIA interview for the job of Customer service officer. I tot this job seem quite alright & a gd chance for me. Apparently, i felt like giving it a try. Could be a wise decision to tk this job if I won't be studying this year....Anyway, this interview was held at TAMPINES & in the mid-afternoon of your day. Haiz...the moment i tot of the journey all the way there & back alone, made me "sianz 1/2" already. I was quite interested to go& try for the interview but i was hestitating to travel tt far, espec. i was still feeling little unwell that day...not fully recovered yet. ha~! i sound indecisive har?
That morning, as usual, i didn't had any plans. Too bored so i went over to my friend's place & slack the whole morning, fell aslp after that..Arh, here it is....I had a Nice rest and slp till it made me couldn't be bothered to wake up to go for the interview liao....Time just passed, & ha~ there it goes..I missed it....haiz..
But nvm, I had a good filling late lunch though. I was super hungry by then as i didn't had anyth since morning.. Finally we went to try the western food @Botak Jones. Hey, indeed it tasted quite good har! haha.. Yummy...It was abt evening time again...look at the weather, it seems quite cloudy and windy again har..? ha, so we headed for kite-flying again~ haha....Arh, tt day my kite really flew up very high in the sky tt we used finish the whole coil of string! Yea, cool...and here's a quick shot tt i took. Look how small my kite is...high up in the sky~~
Well, though i didn't go for the interview which made me feel bit of regrets now, the kite-flying, good lunch and rest still manage to brighten up my day....I hope i got a 2nd chance for tt job now....haiz =/
~*& there she goes,walking thru e next season
chasing her dreams~*~;
9:10 PM
Tuesday, June 20, 2006
It started to pour early this morning again when i was just abt to wake up from bed...That makes me sianz...how to go out when it's raining??..hai~ hate to walk in the rain w an umbrella. it was quite a boring start of my day today as i had simply no idea where to go...I am getting broke so i gotta start saving $$$....& i'm still sick to go for any outdoor activities...
Anyway, i ended up going to town alone to walk around for a while & i left there in the afternoon. I decided to go to Thomson plaza to rent some dvds to watch...still cheaper than gg for a movie now. ha~! I walked into video ezy and rented 3 dvds...tt cost me another $13.50! haiyo...i felt a bit waste of money again though, but nvm it is for my entertainment since i got nth to do.. I went to my friend's house nearby to watch one of the dvd tgth, "Fun with Dick & Jane" haha..The show was quite alright and funny la...
hmm...Time just passed v fast like tt for my day..it was already 5.30pm by the time i finished watching tt show. It was time to go home soon..but before that we drove down to Upper Pierce Reservoir...haha..I've nv been there yet...I saw lots of monkeys there along the way sia...But most of all, we were actually trying our luck to see if there's wind today there to fly my kite up! Thank god~ finally there's wind today!!! yea!! It wasn't v v windy, but was breezy enough to fly a kite, i like the cool cloudy weather just now. =) hee...
We bought a cheap cute kite the other time at Marina South...and we didn't manage to fly our kite up successfully becos of the time & weather recently i guess...Went to several places to try our luck the other time...till today. I'm happy cos i finally can get the kite flying up high!! HIGH enough la!! ;) I realised it requires skill to fly and maintain the kite high up in the sky sia..haha...& I am not good at tt. heehe..
haha..& This is my small simple kite...( haiz, too bad i didn't had my phone w me to take a shot of it flying high in the sky..)
Overall, it's still a fine day la...at least i did sth better like watching a movie and flying my kite. Instead of walking so aimlessly and boring at town....ha~! i hope i can go swimming and cycling the next few days...looking forward for a better day in my week ahead...
~*& there she goes,walking thru e next season
chasing her dreams~*~;
7:58 PM
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
GRADUATION CEREMONY - 13 JUNE 06
Finally...Here comes the day tt I've always been waiting...It's my graduation ceremony after my 3 years of study in poly!! I shld say time indeed passed v fast har....I still remember i couldn't wait to cross over my poly life cos of the tons of hmk, projects, exams & etc. Everyth STRESS la! facing so many notes & books n projects everyday made me so sick of it! Hmm..However i've learnt alot these3 years through those obstacles and fun experiences that came by...Tt includes studies, friends ard me and so on.
Hmm, this morning, i woke up really early n couldn't get back to slp~~though i was v tired and slpt late the night before. ha! So I woke up & took my own sweet time to get change and ready to go sch for my grad. day. Initially, i tot my parents were going to attend too and my dad could probably give me a lift. But ha! who noes, they were still sleeping before i was abt to leave house. Mum said, " nah, i don't think we're going. so early can't make it. got sth on too! " haiz. sianz. tt sounds makes me feel like...they couldn't be bothered abt it....=(
tt was abt 8am and i needa reach sch at 8.30am. no choice, i took a cab down to sch.. Truly Nice to see those friends again espec after a long time. We did some catch up of cos And tt goes without saying, we took a number of photos too after the grad. ceremony. haha! Here are some of the nice shots... (I didn't bring my camera!!) i guess the pic up there is the nicest of all. haha!
This quite a nice shot too..A group of my Class & Sch Mates...(TB23 & 24) hee..
That's catherine & wanting beside me.
Hmm..after our photos, I actually went out with a couple of my ex-classmates for lunch. Nice catch up and lunch with them though. Had a good fun before i headed back home to rest~~!! My legs were aching and starting to feel soo tired at the end of the day la....haha...
~*& there she goes,walking thru e next season
chasing her dreams~*~;
10:25 AM
Saturday, June 03, 2006
31st May 06 - Last Day of Work @ Bosch
Time really flies so fast... Here comes to the end of my 2 months temp. job at Bosch. This is my 2nd time to be back working there. I still remembered the first 2 weeks of working life back at Bosch wasn't that interesting. I was still in a holiday and slacking mood. haha. Not really in the mood to work. But i kept telling myself, it could be a better way to spend my time more wisely as well. hee.
Anyway, things at work got on better and eventually i got used to it. Of course, i had a chance to interact w my collegueues much more better. In fact, It was certainly a great time coming back to catch up w the old collegueues & meeting new pple as well. They were all friendly and easily to get along with. There were even times tt all of us went out for dinner, lunch, ktv and out after work or weekends. haha. I truly had a fun time w them though. =)
But sad to say, just when i started to "clique" along w them better, w lots of nice chat w them, i need to leave liao. hahaha....It's my last day of work and i felt bit.....hmm...mixed feelings i guess?? Saying a goodbye and wishing them all the best makes me feel both happy and sad..
Indeed, I really hope to have a good rest and holiday to slack once again. As i have not been slacking for quite long & have taken a good holiday break since i graduated from school. However, on the other hand, i knew i'm gonna miss working with the people here and their accompany. hahaha...
Haha, but it's ok la, we all promised to meet up coming tue after their work and on and off, i can always meet them for lunch or dinner since i stay so near...haha. And now, i should start thinking abt my serious matters & stuff which i've been worrying abt all the while. I haven really been sitting down thinking properly. Each time i think too much about it, i will feel v lost, hopeless, no direction and etc. Many issues that i've to consider, and i always ended up avoiding the problem, pushing them aside...Makes me feel like...arg...just v moody.
Hmm..& wat's my plans now? I guess i would have a good rest for the first 2 weeks till my graduation ceremony. In the meantime, i will try to settle my uni stuff and start thinking carefully......*sigh* before i start finding another temp job that comes by....=/
~*& there she goes,walking thru e next season
chasing her dreams~*~;
10:32 AM
