Wednesday, July 19, 2006
At the Crossroads in my life...
I realised time is really passing v fast each day. It's already mid of July since i graduated & stopped working @Bosch in May. I've been slacking aimlessly, wasting my time away, without any sense of direction now. Apparrently, I've been feeling moody v often lately.. Why?? because i'm now at the crossroads in my life. My gosh, this feeling is bad...i dislike it so much. It didn't made me feel good. each morning i wake up, i don't feel happy & had nth to look forward to, such as what am i doing now for...??? to acheive wat? Ans: Nothing!?! Where are my goals?? I wish god can guide me which is the best path and direction to take. I wanna study................I wanna get my degree once and for all before i step into the working society....
There're too many factors to consider abt... such as sch reputation, the duration of study, local/overseas, the COST of my tuition fees espec!! pros and cons for each choice la..Which made me feel so lost, no idea what's the best & wisest choice to take. Apparrently, I've been thinking hard, reasearching high and low for every possible & worth course to study.
I tried my v best striving hard to acheive gd results in poly so that i wouldn't have much prob. getting to uni. Indeed i made it, scoring a result that i'm satisfied w. However, local unis like NTU, NUS and SMU went out of my choice. got rejected "unluckily" & they dun have courses tt i seem confident to go for. This made me left with choices of sch like SIM, UNLV, overseas uni or private institutions...*haiz*
I just received the letter of offer from UNLV this morning...Uh Oh......Now shld i go for it?? this uni is not v well-heard of locally yet, cos it just started.....=/
The tuition fee cost a BIG SUMS$$!! & the duration couldn't be shorten regardless of my exemptions. haiz.Though i'll be studying Hospitality...still not a combination with tourism. The onli best adv i can see now is.....I found a uni to study LOCALLY ... and is 1/2 relevant to what i'm interested in. If i choose to go overseas, tuition fees will definitely be lesser and it's faster for me to get a degree too! but.....adding up accomodation and living expenses, i've no idea how ex it will cost up by then....nonetheless, i will miss all my dear ones here..going there alone doesn't sound nice...Haiz...see..tt's my terrible dilemna situation now...
Haven discuss with parents at all yet. they only seem interested to know how much the course is than any other import factors. They even thought i'm not interested in studying anymore and they seem to be discouraging me to go uni now..so sad...NO, of cos not. I wanna study....Wish there's someone to give me some enlightment & encouragement...
~*& there she goes,walking thru e next season
chasing her dreams~*~;
10:31 PM
